These past 2 weeks have been pretty awful. I'm not going to lie. Death, sickness, surgeries--my friends and family have been going through it. And me, well, I've been praying hard for them. I have the tendency, due to my Meyers Briggs personality type (INFJ) to take these things on as if they are happening to me. Which I guess in turn makes me a pretty good pray-er person. I pray fervently, without ceasing until I feel that God has given me a peace of some sort. I am an intercessor.
This morning I happened upon a quote that I need to share and write about. It was that life-changing for me. It was Selah. It caused me to pause and reflect. C S Lewis wrote this--
When grief takes you to the dust--worship there.
Wow, how many times has grief taken me to the dust? Or you? How many times? Most times we are told by others to buck up, trust God, shake it off, etc. However, Lewis sees it a little differently. And now, so do I. I now will worship there. Wherever there might be, so I will be, worshiping. Right there in the middle of my pain and heartache. I will worship there! God knows where I am, He knows how I feel. Why should I not be honest? Why not lay face down, and just plain old worship there?
After reading this quote, in particular, I felt a huge sense of relief. Not that I will stop praying, not that at all. I just felt that in the praying time--I could relax, let go, cry, and worship right there. In a way, it brought me to a very powerful feeling of trust. A feeling that God had his mighty hand all over the many different situations and circumstances in life and that in that time--I could feel safe, I could trust, I could rest in his arms. I had freedom.
Maybe that was it. A feeling of freedom to lay it all down at the feet of the God whom I serve every minute of every day. Maybe now, I could just worship there--at His feet. And leave it there. Knowing that He will, in His perfect timing take care of all my worries, fears, and heartbreaks...yes, I believe that's it. If I can just learn how to implement this new revelation, camp on it for a bit, and then eventually put it into practice, I believe I will have learned a very deep truth about God and His ways.
As you can see, I love this quote. I will learn to worship there, right there, no matter where I am or what is going on around me. No matter death, nor sickness, nor heartbreak--I will worship there.
